Straight As for you bitches! Minus stat but eff stat and I got a 100 on the final so I’m still pretty boss! Holy moly I worked so hard this semester, fell apart so many times, felt like I wanted to give up… I just feel triumphant you know? This feels so good.

I was talking to my brother yesterday and wound up at the conclusion that I don’t really have fun or go out…and it made me I think sadder to realize that (sadder than what, idk). For so long I’ve been questioning why I have to work so hard, and feel so miserable/tired all of the time, and I felt like I wasn’t living. That somehow I didn’t even really have the people in my life that I care about because I haven’t made enough effort to do things with them… Er idk it all just seems so unbearable and lonely sometimes. But this feels good. At least I got some sort of a result for the amount of misery I felt.

Also, I get that my life is very good…and that my problems are desirable comparatively

…I guess what I’m saying is that this feels good like relief or something

I feel like I’m missing out on having this with my friends.

I feel confused